30 March - 5 April
Movement
- My acupuncturist friend traced with her hands the Chinese meridians on my body. Tingling and good feelings arose while feeling her touch and talking about their interconnections. More understanding of how energy in our bodies work, and yin/yang interaction. A DeepL exercise could be to draw on each other's bodies using our hands, tongue, mascara, beetroot juice..
- This week I ached all over my body like crazy.. connected to crazy sleeping patterns, worries.. BUT I didn't do too much about it - very little exercise, eating of particularly good food.. At end of week, I received a reflexology treatment which helped my former aches and lifestyle imbalances. The treatment also gave me a whole new experience of my body. Also, showed me the power of touch, self-healing capacity of body and connections within..
Dreams
Slept a lot.. good dreaming.. even tried to sleep a little earlier each day at time to have time for dreaming and journaling the next morning.. ;-) Feel a closer connection of myself through process and experience of dreaming more. Title of my dreams this week:
- English Birthday dinner
- Dancing in gravity and netball
- Alice in Wonderland Air
The other days not enough sleep or woke up and spoke to someone straight away.. Later during the week, the feelings I had during the dreams mentioned above I felt came into my enjoyment and activities.
Sound
- Hearing my sister's voice and saying it, incredible healing and nice!
- Thought about what quiet interaction is with people - what does it mean? how do i perceive it? what do i recognize in myself here?
- Noticed I sing more, am more vocal and sound too when I'm happy, as if to let others know I'm here..
- Spent the weekend in the countryside.. a certain silence there and sound of emptiness - felt closely connected to my mountain living friend Joni and danced for her..
Other
- Verbally realised what art is to me at the moment, and what kind of work I would like to make..
- Learnt my Chinese name has a little more to it!!
6 - 12 April
Movement
- Became aware again of my lungs and chest areas holding tension while doing some breath work at beginning of last week when overexcited and over-tired. The work helped calm me down a lot, relaxed my heart, and made me more aware of my breathing during the week. Aware of the TCM associations to the lung organ: grief, worry.
- Practised tai chi on 2 different beaches, concentrating on balance on uneven sand and in my home to relax and energise myself.
- Thought about how every gesture we make is healing - the sound of our voice, how we smile, our intention, what activities we do, how we move..
- Felt my chi buzzing around my hand while performing the simple exercise which is the basis of the tai chi set - expanding our fingers enough so I feel an activation of chi in my hands..
Dreams
- 2 remembered dreams this week which were both related to past feelings from home, not necessarily good or bad, but defined a large part of how i felt and went about things during the ages of 10-21
Sound
- Been near the sea a lot in the last week, felt very good - listening to it more and more, its endlessness.
- Also listening more to my breathing, the birds that are out more because of Spring..
- Had dinner with three generations of a family of a good friend of mine, lovely to hear the different voices.. put me in touch with the sounds of families, especially that which comes from age, voice and the kinds of sounds made from each generation
- Listening to tracks of mbira (feels like sun light), tunes that warm my heart and Meredith Monk (thanks, Sharon, amazing!!)
Other
- During the days spent with a close polish friend I did not journal much, here putting too much energy into her visiting, perhaps rather than keeping a more balanced approach?
- Feeding myself well with good food
27 April – 3 May
Dreaming
This week I've recorded my dreams the following morning conscientiously before having breakfast so they don't dissipate too much. Here I'll put the title of the dream and make a summary at the end -
M 'Arriving by boat to North Scotland with my family'
T 'Uncertainty in the Orient'
W No specific details recorded although much happened, felt inside that the happenings were positive with elements of my whirling mind of recent events coming into play
T Didn't dream and got up quickly having had a negative nights sleep, feeling very low in myself.
F Dark whirling thoughts too, similar to night before - sweating, nervous energy, unsettled
S 'Magical play with Rachel'
S 'Confidence, the Magic Lift and an Answer'
My dreams directly reflect my emotions. When I'm feeling good, they take magical narratives and fantasy, often weaving in niggling doubts with bright colours, playful interactions, and recently more music. However, when I'm not feeling well in myself, I either don't record my dreams, hear my whirling thoughts, and physically sweat or feel my heart beating fast.
What was interesting, which is the first time I dream has done this so directly with me, is last night my dream gave me a very clear message. One of the main root causes of my insecurity is my weak memory. If I remembered more in general I would feel better and more confident in myself. But it also warned me, not to get obsessive with this thought, rather, to think of the brain a muscle, and like every muscle, it needs gentle exercise and care for it to grow strong. This is particularly in relation to my learning Spanish. And, I reminded myself too, how even with Tai Chi, one of my strengths, it has taken me a long time to get where I am now.
Would like to try to record my dreams during the night, half get up, to get more detail..
Movement
Breathing - Had a Grinberg session on Monday. For the first time I understood how tight my chest, heart and back is. When asked to breathe deeply I felt how I find it difficult to relax as easily as I thought, and that I breathe very shallowly. Have spent the last week practising breathing deeply more, before sleep, when I wake up, while practising tai chi, when giving treatments.. tried to hear my breath to indicate my depth, pace and expression of breathing. Would like to work on this more, and develop more exercises. Noticed how hearing how other people breath, helps me breathe.
The Grinberg back massage also made me realise how I squeeze and twist myself, and how I could release a lot through my body using breath - a new sensation. The main points of tension in my body where along my wood and water element, the related emotions reflecting me so.
Drew a 'Journey card' on Tuesday to help guide me, the following aptly presented itself to me:
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When you allow your mind to rest, your being to become present to this moment, true inspiration becomes available.
Take a few moments by yourself, close your eyes, take a long deep breath in, and release any body tension with the out breath. Take another breath in and blow out any resistance or frustration, and yet another deep breath in and feel light scintillating as you breath it out. Feeling yourself opening into a vastness, as, "If Grace had inspiring guidance to give, what might it say?"
Open your eyes softly and let words flow onto a page or journal. If Grace wanted to communicate through you, what might be written? Let whatever pour out, no matter how it comes out, be written. Your inner being is full of inspiration. It is bubbling inside you, waiting for expression. Just let it flow.
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Thinking about breathing more, I realised how much my mind wonders.. so focused more on hearing my mind whirl to slow it down.. which has helped me go slower too, and achieve more effortlessly.
During my tai chi classes this week, I've learnt about concentration, taking a moment to see and feel my body and with that relax, let go, complete each move, understand by simplifying, how I feel nervous in front of people sometimes, how the spine softly turns, an element of what teaching is, how thankful I am to the society, the power of don yu's (a Chi Kung exercise) and how I need to do more!
Sound
Need to do more regular meditation. To give light and a structure to descriptive details. Maybe when going to different parts of the city and leave extra time to take 5-10 mins to listen deeply..? Just browsed through PO's book for ideas, like the idea of selecting a sound, and making a note of when I hear it. Or, playing a sound when I feel something..?!
Realised the way I hear is very related to my emotions. On saturday I slept by the sea, rocked by the waves soft to-ing and throw-ing..
Other
Thought about what friendship is, how I need to feel like I'm building something with someone.. interesting metaphor for connections in general..
4-10 May
Dream 4 May: Answers to daily questions, interactions with people close to me
Going on a journey – element of RW wondering around Italy and to be, with Sharon in England. Travelling with Sharon.. deep travelling. Looking for a book by a Spanish author on the elements.. wondering how I can buy series of books more cheaply – interested in the content but not so much too – don’t know how perfect for me. Sharon travelling with me – I span her energy next to my body – I feel her very much but not her connection to me - - I protect myself from her energy – I block it off on some level. I like her very much but do not feel in love with her, or give into that.
Rachel is around too.. more open with her. Realise I don’t let people in.. need to transform my relationship with parents and loving myself and love of others, to enjoy them somehow and stop only observing… necessary to participate more. Get myself involved in connections where I have this gap of protection and participation.. can see and can change..
RW appeared again - - find red lipstick for my lips. So I can sap titles of each piece/ wher point. One point where red isn’t appreciated and so I wear it down. He touched my heart very softly tenderly, we sleep together in the same bed, nothing happens… but he is changed and sleeping next to me, his wife away in Paris so it is fine.
Anita appears.. I very happy to see her – she helps me talk to these visitors too.. whom are trying to take over the house… Once all is mostly sorted and my parents return, we sit aside inside and she tells me how India is - - she is near a touristy area where she taps into talking to others. She finds it ok there and enjoys being near her parents once again. We have to take the train back to Oxford.. Lizzi drives me, Anita and Rach down where we just catch the train fine. RW has gone too – to London. Parents are fine to look after rest of holders (RW before helping them with a high stool and inverted broom).
Could easily fall asleep and have another dream again. Breathing deeply really helps relax me and get more oxygen to my brain unlike never before. Feel fresh though and get on with the day. Feel curious about dream and glad I got up to write it – good technique, more info.
Grinberg session – feeling grounded
After the treatment I felt light-headed, left hand side of body releasing, body relaxing physically, aches and pains apparent all over – can feel. Vibrating point on bum, up back on left hand side and humming on right hand side back. Chi through fingers and hands, body.. tension in chest, spine energised.
Good to talk, ask open questions, increase awareness, breathing, listening, doing. Body finds its own answers and own way.. How do you ground yourself here? How do you feel your emotions? How do you describe your work towards stability?
Dream 5 May: Love, complications, change, pain, paintings, netball
Marriage?! I was I love with my dream guy and he with me. Suddenly he had to change marriage and I saw it happen – he had the power, he knew the jury. Found this out through Aliki. We were in Rachel’s old old room – dark, she playing Spider man computer games, smoking. She told me she first got to know Jazz when he was 18, he another child of hers – through a Chinese mutual friend. He was thinking of doing massage first or reflexology but in the end wasn’t brave enough. But he knew people – much like my ex-boyfriend – he didn’t have much choice, had to change his girl friend – it was his death or another persons. Strange how it happened.
I there like a secret camera and could see everything. Strange how he just cut himself off for money. Saw how he picked his tie and suit, with several men watching him in a large, traditional old shop/ gentleman’s room. Wedding ceremony. After, a circle went to back room where we danced.. waiting for him to appear. Aliki whispered in my ear to dance, and dance in front of his weaker friends to see if there was a change. If he is really attracted to you.. yes.. it was lost, the new, prettier woman had entranced them. She came in later wearing the silk boxes of his grandfather and explained how she was getting her stuff on.. Strange, weird dream – Pouya, Aliki, jazz, Iran?
And later another dream – netball match funded by Full Circle. I tired but Ms. Beill asked if I could be captain and send invoice to Full Circle. Played well, first team – then second team. We moving in minibus to get there, windy journey. I GK, very active, played well, despite tiredness. Outside courts, grey but not too cold. Temperature now – May time. Lucy Kinnear, telling me how some were in hockey tour – g p p d.. or something. Like sound of washing machine. Checked here or but said she wrote in wrong colour as a trick and so she had to stay back and play netball – knew – them to go to hockey tournament abroad.
I am completely spaced out in a physical way – not experienced before.. good dream (although details strange in hindshight), deep sleep. Back and shoulders and bum ache., breathing easier.. head spaced out.. rest, rest, rest!
Dream 6 May: Stalker inspired
Watched a long film with Maider made by her step brother – funded by their joint father (Dom, Chile). In 8 parts, with quick drink 20 minutes refresher every 50 minutes. Really good film - - looking at life – bit like the Stalker (long, slow, detailed, more about imagery than words). Imagined during a film scene Tiff was in it, trying to pay for a car parking ticket. In the end couldn’t (fault of the machine) so she took a picture to prove she couldn’t pay by the meter. Paul appeared too in the dream. Taking photos, while waiting for Tiff and I. After the film with Maider I was exhausted, we stayed for a drink and chilled out – really relaxed and also enjoying each others company and letting the film sit in. I realised we were in a nice art cinema, old school, large auditorium and screen with a nice café bit where we chilled out. Also a third person, Mum wasn’t into etching so much. We got in, but enjoyed being together in silence, didn’t feel the need to talk.
confident in leading.
Dream 7 May – Ursula’s country home after a good while, Pau and Rachel Spanish
Dreamt I was in a house in the countryside with Ursula and her chef boyfriend (a bit like Andre and the Mimi/ Stefan/ Eric/ Dana situation) plus 2/3 of her kids and their girl/boy friends (they are teenagers, perhaps 16). Invited along by their daughter (like a young Ursula), a good friend and indeed Ursula too. Really skilled, good vibe. Big kitchen, amazing house. An amazing cooking apparatus – a bit like a fashionable thin glass fish tank, goes over the gas stove, is somehow clamped down, so that heat collects inside and creates a vacuum. It cooks something inside by melting it, perhaps cheese. Everyone chilled out, taking a coffee or some drink. Rachel and Paula energy around too. I make gazpacho for Ursula and I, plus the beef/ soya/ onion stir-fry – had it anyway and good to share it with her. Happy to talk with Ursula and catch up, been a while – she looking great with her long dark brown hair, and so nice to meet her boyfriend who is so cool! Somehow it transitions to Pau and Rach. I want Pau to give lessons to Rach in Spanish, show her the joy og learning a new language.. and so she can visit me more in Spain! Yes! Nice to some how click with Pau and be closer – now, something has really changed in me. Less awkward, more natural somehow!
Tai Chi with Jesus
Received a flower from the Society’s garden, an off-shoot of the aloe vera, reminds me warmly of mummy in so many ways. And a beautiful gesture too, of acceptance into the society, yes! Also, more of a guide in the class, took one of the 4 corners. Learnt to relax, soften, slow, quiet, be.. more today.
Singing, feeling lighter – settling in, feeling roots, emotions off – singing tones easier
Coming back after tai chi so happy, more and more living here, knowing people and building things. Sung along for a while to tunes whose sounds massage and vibrate with my chakras. Find myself singing loosely and with energy when feeling good in myself. Voice so connected to state of mind, emotions.
Dream 8 May: Deep deep sleeeeep
Many a dream.. curious mind.. I’ve moved on from something and even my deep sleep is not so fullof lethargy as before. Emotions have lifted.. wow, how they can weigh me down. Needed Nunu’s massage – slowing me down. 13 hours of sleep not sure where it takes me.. building immune system and roots for once rather than catching up, up, up.
In such deep deep sleep, could not even wake up to write.. netball appeared, old friends. A big lunch/ dinner and similar feelings of not being connected – body language and seating positions reflecting Want to start doing more exercise again.
Body moved very freely and creatively unconsciously to music
Ended going out Friday night.. my body danced in a way it never has before, and I was very happy with the people around me.. nice to feel so good in my body.. didn’t realise it was even there until I arrived..
10 May – quiet day, of realisations..
Yes, another 12 hours of sleep. Can’t remember dreams too, completely gone. But know I feel good and rounded inside. Spoke to Pouya about stepping aside. Many strong and succinct realisations came, finally for myself and my connection to him. Wow. Quiet day, reflecting, excited, uncontrolled… but good.
11-15 may, notes~
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this week i began running everyday, which changed my life overnight. good, proper, clear start to my every day.. loving nature, being more and more in my body, hearing birds and letting their melodies vibrate and resonate within my body, dancing with butterflies, absorbing the suns rays, over-watching the city wake, move, stand.. learning from nature's eternal qualities too... and how i need to be in contact with she each day.
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more and more a need for a physical place to build, home.. also to make work.. painting in anna's reminded me of the power of imagination and other place.. the importance of art, what it can do for another, and why its good for me..
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took a day for positive loving, grounding, no rush.. taking time.. enjoying what and how there is.. first time i done this spontaneously and it arising from my body, it appearing and unfolding itself... lovely, grounded sensations and experiences..
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dreams.. of people in my life - family.. dad and rachel have appeared, interestingly, not my mother yet.. only in conscious thoughts... mm.. and too, places have appeared in my dreams where activities and stories have played themselves - places important to me, or places that have been an enduring part of my life - which i know inside out..
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meditations from tai chi this week: complete each move fully, really relax into each move - can then do much better, with less effort, so less tiring.., i've wavering attention often during the set and class (and so, in life..mm..)
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in one of my dreams a sound of home appeared - the noisy lift in my block of flats was sounding in the earlier hours of the morning, which triggered memories of my garage opening when my father left for work at early light each day.. a lovely sound, so very comforting, warm, clear.. my father going to work, looking after us, looking after himself, full hours, each day.... and he often calling us with a beep - a beep of the back door of our house, which my parents put on to know when my sister and i left the house when we were young - a beep to let us know if we wanted to join him for breakfast, this was the best time.. always a beep first time he was in the kitchen , heating the kettle, getting the bread out, then another beep when he was eating so if we didn't join him with food, at least we could speak to him before he left for the day.. aaaa.. so very good this sound..
- and interestingly, one of the australian bush flowers i'm taking in my dose this month, see description:
'This Essence was made up under unique circumstances on Toolrunup Peak, the second highest peak in the Stirling Ranges. Red Helmet Orchid helps a man bond to his child or children. It helps men to be aware to allocate quality family time. Making this Essence required not only sunlight but also moonlight, thereby adding the feminine principle so as to allow bonding. It is also for anyone with unresolved father issues, which can manifest as a recurrent, lifelong rebellious attitude to authority figures - police, headmasters, bosses, etc.'
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i've begun more and more to find how best to learn spanish.. one way i've found is talking to my soul child.. talking talking to my deep self, about why communicating with others is good, communicate deriving from latin - share, in common, .. to connect with others, other being living in our beautiful world, and hearing them, hearing their expressions, voices, aloud, clear..... and so, wishing, to communicate from a good place, and why its necessary for me to communicate verbally.. as part of the whole.. and a part of me.. a way of understanding our fortune..
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had a grinberg session - worked on my stomach this week.. been meaning too for a while.. it was painful and brought a kind of sadness in a way i've never experienced before.. worked deep inside.. the morning after i wrote this in response and reflection of the treatment and work done: 'i feel the pain very deep, the point worked by the practioner penetrating more and more, through and through, .. my whole body. emotions and feelings are strong in a way/pattern i don't recognise..'
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more aware in myself how i need to be with someone.. although i stronger and stronger everyday.. there's something i'd like to share and recieve, fully, deeply and directly with another, their energy close and cradling me.. in person.. from every day life.. holding, loving, warm, full of life, peace, action and living.. building..
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find myself singing happily much this week.. cycling.. feeling chakras aligning, deep resonation from within me more and more expressed, shared.. laughing how to shared those moments with whom i pass by when i cycle..
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beginning to express myself more through image.. remembering the importance of image again and how it triggers..
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building of energy between two people.. how we can help one another.. doing, not talking. thinking about it.. just being and no rush.. yes.. been a long time since someone said that to me from experience rather than theoretically..
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the power of drawings over paintings.. yes
sound~
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feeling good in myself, hearing the voices of others, instruments, my body moving, listening to our wonderful world a little more again, sound in dreams more (father beep)
movement~
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tai chi, running, yoga, lungs/ breathing, groundedness, body eloquence book - learning the manifestation of stories, movements, characters within our body..
dreams~
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moving, revealing, reminding, current thoughts and their truth
reflexology, healing, other~
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drawing another,
the importance of treatments and their effect,
how we all work,
effect of stress on us,
power of vertical reflexology technique,
standing/ lying/ breathing naturally,
sitting in silence with others,
being silent hearing the pain of loved ones but not carrying their things anymore,
the pleasure with a man and woman.. but in the end whom you fall in love with which is important..
what's important to you?
slowly but surely beginning to expand consciousness of sound, movement/body, dream
funny week.. big steps in small life way, thank you universe
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reflecting on the simple wonder of bush flower remedies:
- Bach himself stated it quite wonderfully when he said that the function of Flower Essences are: 'To raise our vibrations and to flood our natures with the particular virtues and to wash out from us the faults which were causing them. They are able like beautiful music or any gloriously uplifting thing which gives us inspiration, to raise our very natures and bring us nearer to ourselves and by that very act to bring us peace and relieve our suffering. They cure not by attacking disease but by flooding our bodies with beautiful vibrations of our higher nature in the presence of which disease melts as snow in the sunshine.'
- Richard Gerber MD, in his excellent book Vibrational Medicine, provides a more scientific and physiological description of how the Flower Essences work: 'When an Essence is ingested or absorbed through the skin, it is initially assimilated into the blood stream. Then it settles midway between the circulatory and nervous systems. There, an electromagnetic current is created by the polarity of the two systems. The Essence then moves directly to the meridians, which are vital mechanisms of interface between the subtle bodies and the physical body. From the meridians the Flower Essence is amplified out to the chakras and various subtle bodies and then back again to the physical body. The amplification also magnifies the life force potency of the Essence and aids in its assimilation. The Essence reaches the imbalanced parts of the body faster and in a more stable form. The quarts-like crystalline silica structures in the physical body, such as those in the blood stream, the hair and nails, amplify and transmit the healing energies of the Flower Essences to their appropriate sights of action, and at the correct frequencies. This whole process is similar to the way radio waves strike a crystal in a radio so that the crystal resonates with the higher frequencies, absorbing them and transforming them into audio frequencies which can be heard by the human ear.'
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a story that touched my heart - What's Important to You, Unknown Author
- A Native American and his friend were in downtown New York City, walking near Times Square in Manhattan. It was during the noon lunch hour and the streets were filled with people. Cars were honking their horns, taxicabs were squealing around corners, sirens were wailing, and the sounds of the city were almost deafening. Suddenly, the Native American said, "I hear a cricket."
- His friend said, "What? You must be crazy. You couldn't possibly hear a cricket in all of this noise!"
- "No, I'm sure of it," the Native American said, "I heard a cricket."
- "That's crazy," said the friend.
- The Native American listened carefully for a moment, and then walked across the street to a big cement planter where some shrubs were growing. - He looked into the bushes, beneath the branches, and sure enough, he located a small cricket. His friend was utterly amazed.
- "That's incredible," said his friend. "You must have super-human ears!"
- "No," said the Native American. "My ears are no different from yours. It all depends on what you're listening for."
- "But that can't be!" said the friend. "I could never hear a cricket in this noise."
- "Yes, it's true," came the reply. "It depends on what is really important to you. Here, let me show you."
- He reached into his pocket, pulled out a few coins, and discreetly dropped them on the sidewalk. And then, with the noise of the crowded street still blaring in their ears, they noticed every head within twenty feet turn and look to see if the money that tinkled on the pavement was theirs.
- "See what I mean?" asked the Native American. "It all depends on what's important to you."
1-7 june
Grinberg group introductory session
The therapy utilises a lot of practices/ exercises covered (or could potentially be so in the DL approach/ practice). There was voice and body work that we did individually and as a group. After completing the session I felt new sensations in my body and had learnt a lot about the group of people i had the session with. After each exercise, the leader would always guide us to be still and listen to how the exercise just completed affected us. I was pleasantly surprised and happy that the considerations of DL were used fully throughout the work but with an emphasis on health as supposed creativity. Reminded me of this link and other such connections with this kind of work.. also that I need to do more voice and breath work.
An African woman singing, while we stood in a large circle heart to heart
I attended a party to raise funds to help Indian children go to school. The atmosphere was full of warmth and lovely people. At the end we all stood together arm in arm and listened to one of the women there sing beautifully. Her clear, loving, human voice touched all our hearts and helped create a group energy. There was a speech to say thanks and we connected for the last time again, this time I suggested we linked with one another - one hand on our heart and the other on the back of the person next to you, behind their heart. It was a nice moment for me to suggest something and have it so nicely received and enjoyed. We listened once more again to the woman sing. It made me realise how easy it can be when people are responsive and open to the DL pieces/ practices.
Walking to see Anna on Wednesday
I so full of love and looking forward to seeing Anna, took a long, slow and meandering walk to pick her up after work so we could sit by the beach together with a new good friend of hers from Slovakia. I decided spontaneously to profit from the walk by using it as a meditation. Probably spent half the time listening and half the time getting distracted.. understood what locomotion is more, speed - - what actually happens to things when there is tempo applied to them.. enjoyed for the first time listening more and more to the world. here were some of the activities i heard that created sounds i heard: 3 brush sweepers sweeping on the same street, children playing, talking amongst themselves, hitting the door to make it open, birds wings flapping, car engines, bikes, walking, loud footsteps, quiet tiptoes.. begun to enjoy the present unpredictability of things..
Listening while running
A few hours before leaving for England, I took a run in my park to help me prepare for the transition of going over for a few days. What helped me prepare for the trip in the end, unexpectedly, was really listening while I was running. Being so present in those moments, was the best I could take from my time at that time.. and I realised that's all I could do when I was in England too.. and in the way I'm not loosing one or the other.. and if anything creating more space for new experiences by not holding on..
Deep inner stillness
Begun to cultivate and nourish my inner stillness and calm. After reading some wise words, I took time to touch this space within me.. after many years of exploring this.. finally I began to hear what this was in me, and how it surrounds me.. and this feeling has remained with me as I experienced it and let it come forward of itself.. it has helped me feel more peaceful and more loving towards others..
Tai chi this week
In the last 6 months, a part of my tai chi has improved a lot, and my teacher Mode remarked how it had improved so. Warmly she asked me to share with the class what I had changed for the move. I responded that I relaxed more in general - physically, spiritually and mentally and 'let go' to complete the move properly. A metaphor for living life too.. also nice to be more involved in the class and seen..
Living by the sea
Went to the sea to chill out with some Anna on Wednesay.. its sound and eternal space deeply touched me. As I can choose, the next place I live in, I would like to live by the sea and see what the sea's daily presence distills and creates within me.
Dreaming
I only remember one dream this week, which involved figures from my art school, aliki y enric, jazz.... events of what's going on recently in my life, mixed with times in england..
Artist meeting
Met with a group of artists at a spiritual centre (www.bkwsu.org), the title of the session was 'The value of being authentic', "All I have to do is be and all I have to be is what I am." I learnt a lot about art and spirituality in our small group. One of the things I enjoyed most was how we all deeply listened to each through our drawings and silence before later offering words about our drawing. And, at the end, we had a small meditation together, ending in silence.
27 & 28 June
Deep Listening Study group workshops at Esperanzah! Music Festival, Barcelona
The workshop lasted about 45 minutes and consisted of:
- Welcome, introduction and going around the group, saying our names
- Movement exercises
- Breathing exercises
- Sound exercises
- Dream Box activities
I gave the workshop with a friend Anna, but afraid of my basic Spanish not being as communicative as I would like, I let her dominate a bit too much. However I learnt about respect, my fears of leading and difficulties with communication. The experience was very enriching, and I was happy to begin working with others, even if not very confidently at the beginning. After giving the workshop it was very enriching to see how people benefited and myself too – could feel my heart more open and stronger. I look forward to growing in this form more.
Preparing for the workshop and putting up a presence online, I learnt a lot more about Deep Listening and the importance of its practice to me. Giving workshops and having direct contact with others is a good method of learning more about Deep Listening for me.